The Diary

Purple glistening shards
of hard boiled sweets
strewn across the pavement

You kick me in the throat
with your brittal words of
will you wont you/'s

Taken under this hood
of clouded mishapen virtue
and your whispers
your fucking whispers

The oars that slapped my shins
are now split and splintered

All those pictures of broken amber lights
and fisheye views

Yous, all of you's
all battered in existence
all crisp and raw in sunlight

I feel the pounding of shoes
hollow in my ears
drums of natives
smoke from their gods
calls from the ones
that are just having fun

Just scape/ing what you have
for what? , another break?
another vacant holiday?
in the life of human hearts

The diary of a keeper
the diary of something
someone.

The Titans Of My Heart

The titans of my heart,
They pour out like a sunami in Thailand.
I lose you in my head,
I lost you back home,
But never assume that this is the case.

Consume, consume, consume,
As much as our bodies can take,
All i want is the growth,
But rack up again,
Because the destruction is never lost,
Only found again once set back in the dark

Rack up again on the book that made me,
Made me realise what i believe.
Think it true, but maybe not,
Take me for granted,
I'll still fall back for you.

I want you,
I've always wanted you,
But never again.

If we were to start again,
Would you treat me the way you should?

I cannot feel the way you want me to.

Ride me,
Ride me,
Fucking ride me,
Make me bound!

The wave you create i am going to surf,
Like you said you'd water me down.

I can't feel my fingers or toes,
I can't feel my skin crawl,
All i want is to feel the chill's you gave me,
In that first moment we locked eyes,
That bolt of lightening,
That instant thrill.

You excited me,
Where has it gone?
Where the fuck have you gone?
Do i deserve this?
Don't i deserve better?
Crave me again,
Did you ever crave me?

30.05.09

30.05.09
Rocketship heart,
Scoop up that decanther
You have encapsulated my soul
With your liquid fluid love

You are in breach
Of sector TWO, of THE UNTRUE
Like me, you are designed for one

Eat me whole,
Devour me fully,
Digest the words that only we speak.